Letter from God

A while back I was going to a different counselor and she gave me an assignment that I was to write a letter to God, pouring out my feelings and problems to Him. And then I was to write a letter FROM God, using scriptures to back up what I thought He might say in response. It seemed to be an impossible assignment but as I was doing everything I could do to get past the depression that was getting darker every day, I decided to give it a try. I sat down, and over an hour poured out my heart to God. But it was tough. What was I going to say to Him. I would type. I would delete. No, that sounds whiny. That sounds dumb. God isn't going to think this is important enough to ask Him about. Then it came to me that God already knows, and He thinks everything about us is important, because He loves us. God doesn't just want our big problems, He wants our tiny ones. He wants us to come to Him when we lose our car keys, when we have a bad day, and when we want to give up. I finally made it though the letter, and then sat there. It was time to write the response From God. I prayed, and sat down, closed my eyes, and began to type. Words flowed from my fingertips at lightening speed. I am not a good typist, but my fingers flew across the keyboard. Finally, I reached the end, and looked back at what I had typed. It was the most perfect thing I had ever done. I shared it with a couple of people but have just sat on it since. But God has been working on me lately that I need to share the gift He gave me, the letter that reads so perfectly I know that the Holy Spirit inside me delivered that as a message from God. SO here goes:

Dear Beckie,

I know at times your life doesn't make sense, but Know that I have plans for you. Plans to bring you a future and a hope. Sometimes the road seems hard. You make rash decisions, without seeking My will for you. You veer off the path I have for you. Then I must re-route you to put you back on My path. These side routes are hard, but necessary to find the Narrow Gate of righteousness, away from the wide gate that leads to destruction. My child, I know you, I know all the suffering you have gone through, I know that even when you fail, you succeed, because you learn and grow. All things work for good for those who love Me. Before I formed you in your mothers womb, I knew you. I knew where you would end up, and there is a purpose for it, just as there is a purpose and a time for everything under the sun. I love you Beckie, so much that I sent My Son to die for you, so that you could live for Me and with Me eternally. When the time was right, I called you. You were stubborn, and rejected Me many times, but I kept calling you, kept drawing you closer to Me, and I knew that you would eventually turn to Me. My children know Me, they hear My voice, I have called to you many times, you recognized My voice because you belong to Me. I send you trials and temptations to strengthen you, to help you grow. To prove to Satan that you belong to Me. I don't give you any trials that are more than others have gone through, including My own Son, and I always give you a way out, so that you can stand up under the trial. Sometimes you fall, sometimes you forget to listen for My voice, you take your eyes off of Me, and wander away. But you always come back, and I am here waiting on you. Because I love you. Even when the demons come, and attack you, for My sake, remember that Jesus defeated them on the cross. Remember the end of the Bible, Beckie We win. Satan can only hurt you for a little while, but through Me, you will have victory. Keep your eye on the cross, on Me. When you feel unloved, remember how much I love you, Remember that Jesus loved you enough to die for you. Remember that I have placed people in your life to love you and make up for the ones who didn't. You touch their lives in ways you don't even realize and through you, their faith in Me grows as well. You are a strong warrior, whether you believe it or not. I love you, I have faith in you. I never regret creating you. Remember, My thoughts are higher than your thoughts and My ways are higher than your ways. Its not up to you to understand, its up to you to live, to worship, to pray, and to grow in grace in Me. Life is hard, because Satan has control of the earth, but only for a little while longer, and then I will send My Son, to bring You and the rest of My children Home to Me. I cannot wait. But there is much to happen before that day. Keep up the fight, My child, keep looking up, keep listening for My voice. and always remember, that I love you. 

Love, God

I reread this letter whenever I feel discouraged. When life gets hard. Because in my heart I know this is what He would say to me. Think about your own life. If you were to write a letter to God what would you say? What questions would you ask Him? And if He sent a letter back, what truths do you think it would reveal? God loves me. My crazy life at times does not make any sense to me at all, but God understands it completely. I may not always do what is right, but sooner or later I figure it out. And my greatest hope and prayer, is that on the day I stand before Him, He looks at me with love, and says Welcome Home Beckie.